HELLO, MOVINGHOUSE.

Yoz babe. CHECKMEOUT.
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HMMN.
seems like all my blogz have littlecoral
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SlACkiNG MY ASS Off. (crazyjyelfyjourney)

HEH, LETS SEE. Yesterday, went ktvin wit kenn, alvin, vivian and huishanz:)

TODAY, went DENTAL, and the meanie dentist PLUCKED OUT MY TOOFHZ! (jkin, hes nice^^)... Zo.. theres like a major hole in my mouth? ...gross right? ER. and i like typing so as zo, its nt a typo^^ (LAME) Yeah. ANDAND Surprisingly, it didnt hurt abit! :P This called pro. (LAMER) Heh. I dunno, the dentist apparently applied alot of the numbnumb thingy, anesthestia? (idknw how to spell it) (FAIL) So it really didnt hurt, i didnt even feel anything when the toofhz came out:) Wow, thats my 4thz extraction ler. At times like this i hate having a small mouth. Oh well. :/ Cant have everything. (EPICFAILZ)

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LOL, as much as i wanna, im NOT gonna upload a pic of my toofhz! but its rly cute la. managed to gross out jiaying and elfy today with it, kept fiddlin wit it and so on. GROSS:P

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LOL, oh yea. TODAY, went out wit jy and elfy, and we had ZEROCASH(fail), so we like ... idiots la, walk here walk there, go kinokunia camwhore like siao. (why of all places kinokunia???!)

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I'm still trying to figure that out:)

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Aniwae, cleaning room now, so its rly messy (more than usual.) BUTT BUTBUTBUT

it will be spotless and pretty when im done^^

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Hahaz, yknw, right now, I'm wishin i could have a shoulder to cry on:] Not that I'm sad or anything, bt feels good, yknw? :] Bt oh well. :) Can't let myself. Hahaz. sadface:)

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Today we walked past this shop that sells really random, overpriced, zen zen stuff. Hahaz, you'll see it again soon:)

the NARCIST, and her weird escapades:)

TO MY BELOVED ReADERS THAT I THINK AND WISH THAT I HAVE:

PLEASE do leave me a tag/comment/whatever,

because i feel oh so insecure when my tagboard is empty!

(and yes, i am a despo freak:])

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Was just thinking...

Life is so much more then its cut out to be?

Its so simple yet so complex

Its like a great big irony, just thinking about it.

CHIMZ:)

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Oh well, To notify the "MANY" readers that (by faith, i think/hope/praythat/ i have), i shall say that i have successfully spent 89 dollars in a week, and lost the other 11 to places/people that i shall not mention^^.

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Its been SUPER hectic!. kay la. not really:) Lets see.

MONDAY: shoppin wit vc

TUESDAY: redcampSIX

WEDNESDAY: redcampSIX

THURSDAY: graduation/prom/chalet

FRIDAY: chalet/ sakura

SATURDAY: parent's seminar(dont ask) / church/ failure "study session wit W388"

SUNDAY: SLACK/cg:D

ok. maybe it wasnt really so hectic after all:)

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OH ANYWAY, i realise that i am a super perverted freak! ZOMG. God. Please purify my MIND. I wanna PURE like SNOW like DOVES like WHITE. :D

(quicknote)

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Thanks guys for encouraging me this past week (since a new week has officially begun). Really appreciate you guys la, even though i will NEVER show it:) Hahaz, i are okae:) Just think too much at times:) You touch me:) [sounds wrong] ... You make me feel touched. :)

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[emo] PHOTOS FROM FUNFAIR/ CG BDAE:)

Okae, today is 20nov, i shall just continue blogging from this post since i edited the potoz. Will add more photos soon:]

Hahaz

Anyway,

Its a friday:) the week is ending! And, as usual, emo:]

Can't help it uh.

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Sometimes, it feels as if emoing is just a stupid waste of time, doesn't it? :] Yea, don't cha hate emos? :] Hmm, just realised, maybe emoing aint so bad.. Oh well, or maybe its just me liking emoing. Today i just kept having these thoughts in my mind, why do bad things happen to good people? Or even to bad people for that matter. In my case, i brought everything bad that happened to me all on myself. (phrasing kinda weird, rightz?) Aka, whatever bad that happened to me is all my fault. Well, at least I think so la, since i can't really blame anyone for what happened, can I.

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I know that such things happen to mould us into better people, but still, it just feels kinda :( la. Kinda bothers me alot since its my fault. Like, why was i so stupid? Some people face bad experiences because of things they cannot change, but i brought it upon myself.. If not, who knows where i could be... Oh well, whats done is done..

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Lets see.. (reminscing..spelt wrongly too:] )

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My secondary school life is/was a total mess.

(I'm kinda craving for attention right now, so I'm just gonna blog out what im feeling luh. :] despo right? :) )

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Just be4 sch started, i told myself, make it a good year, start afresh, yknw? All the things that you'd tell yourself when a new chapter of your life begins. Yea, i dont know what happened...I just became....haiz, i dont know. Fear i guess, insecurities... Just couldn't open up, remained the shy, insecure, freakishly nerdy girl...

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Maybe thats why i felt so hopeless... because of fear of rejection...

(OMG WHY AM I BLOGGING THIS..embarassin.)

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SEC2.. thought maybe transferring would change everything. Man, was i wrong... Depending on people is a stupid thing to do... (i still believe in this statement today,) Yeah, so for awhile, my life was gud:) then emo agn, slash slash... cutcutwristzz... Hahaz, hated life...

End of sec2...Got into rs problems, did stupid things, couldn't say no... STUPID la.. Sec3, same problems... Stuff that i feel so ashamed of..

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HAHA.. i dam failure 1 la, last time can hide in toilet, cry to myself, take out penknife and slashzz.. then play wit the blood on the toilet door... Like write my name and draw and stuff. But my scars aint rly deep la.-.-

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Wow, really heartpain la.. i dam dumb.

Hais, i feel so...heartzbroken

Like i can never love again...

Feel as if i've been defiled and cannot be made pure... made whole...

I just wish i could go back in time and erase everything...

Take back the mean things i've said, stupid actions i've made...

Yet, all things happen for a reason...

Its been allowed to happen, so no point wishing...

Still, i just feel kinda heartbroken...

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Hais... Nevermind.

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Life goes on. :)

Freedom: DAY #3. (ACSBARKERFUNFAIRDAY)

Have you... ever felt like you're going through a problem that you know how to solve?

Babe, I'm feeling just that.

Why?? why? why?!
Why has my insecurities come back? Why is it that only when im with You- that my insecurities come back? Is it you? or is it me..

Why do i still like hiding in a corner and crying to myself?
Why do i still like to isolate myself from you?
I love being with you,
i look forward to being with you, but..
Whats holding it back?

Today, i emoed for the first time in months.
Today, i felt anger, hatred,
bitterness,
Remorse.
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And the worst part is that i dont know,
why.

Why, oh God. Why do these feelings bombard me time and time again. Why can i not seem to break free of them once and for all. I know your promises, i KNOW that i KNOW that I KNOW your truths, yet i lie to myself.

Why do i still,
Why do i fear?
Why do i lack courage..

Why am i still afraid.......

This is my dilemma..

Freedom: DAY #2.

Lets see, TODAY, i went dentist(pain), went home to get the acs tix, then went town agn to meet VC, and watched 2.0.1.2. :D Stupid movie. Its like just toyin with our emotionz. -.- SO DRAMA. dont like it. :)

Oh, and i just realised that im free after all, tomorrow. BUT, i dun wanna go to the acs funfair:( OH, SOB. ARHZ.........Zzz.

Wow. happy siolz. Sold $70 alr! :D just 130 more to go, and its tomorrow:)
ZOMG.

OH, and i bought a everlast sports bra today:D and it makes me look dammit flatz. :[

HAHAZ. okae. thats it. too lazy to post anythin else. LOL.
its just too much of a trouble:D

Freedom: DAY #1.

its pathetic to post about your day :D

BUT Whocares:D

TODAY, I...
went ahgongz hse:D just became $100 richer^^
AMEN sia. 2-fold blessing. :) Thanks God, you know what i need:)

ALSO,
WENT OUT WIT KENN, ALVIN and GARY TDYY:D Watched Paranormal Activity, and WHOA, it was.. FUNNY. That is, until kenn got off the bus, then KABOOM, scared liaoz. ><" Oh well. never provoke what you ought not:) [was luffin all throughout the movie luh. almost fell asleep halfway osoz cus of a headache-.- :x]

I MISS YOU GUYS.. omg. So DAMNN happy that we can go out tgt agn:D (i knw it sounds like we died or sth but. yea. miss you alot:) )

ANYWAY, time to actually post sth IMPTZ.

HAIZ.

How can i be so heartless?

Its like, my heart is just being ripped away.

I stopped thinking for others, a long time ago?- ....

Thought i could just push everything aside..

and solve it when my emotions came back.

but things dont wait for us, do they.

life goes on whether we can catch up or not ..

and i couldnt..

sorry i hecked you..

(this is ..to everyone i neglected to give a damnnz about.)